Monday, March 28, 2011

Reminiscence

In the name of Allah the Compassionate the Merciful















Remember when you smiled and laughed
He looked at you jealously
His jealousy was so intense for
You are only His
The new person turned you away from His face
You seemed so happy but deep down your inner self is dying
He who ever loves you could not bear to see your dying self
He calls you thousands of times but His calls you ignored
He gazes at you lovingly but you were so blinded by your new found company
For love He let you go...left you on your own...
Then you grasped in the dark
You fumbled and fell down hard....your whole being was gravely aching
Suddenly you cry out His name
Regretting your folly
He who is ever present
Longing for your sweet voice
Just waiting for you to grasp His ever extending hand
Which you cannot see before for you were blinded by mortal love
His love for you made Him let you go
To make you come running back to Him


THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME REALIZE

Mother

Never could I understand
Your love until I have my own
Never have I realized your sacrifices
your burden your pain
Forgive me for not realizing
Forgive me for not understanding
Forgive me for not appreciating enough
How I wish I could take back all your pain
How I wish I could take away all your grieve
How I wish I could pay all your sacrifices
How I wish I could turn back the time and ease all your suffering
Now I'm reliving what you've gone through
What they did to me ten-fold what I've given you
How I wish I could be like you
Strong amid adversity brought by your own

Forgive me for all I've put you through
Mother
For the love of your children
You always forgive though you may not forget
You're the greatest gift given by Allah to humanity

"And your Lord has decreed that you worship none but Him. And that you be dutiful to your parents. If one of them or both of them attain old age in your life, say not to them a word of disrespect, nor shout at them but address them in terms of honor. And lower unto them the wing of submission and humility through mercy, and say: "My Lord, bestow upon them Your Mercy as they did bring me up while I was young" (al-Qur'an, al-Isra': 23-24).

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Love Vengeance

In the name of Allah the Compassionate the Beneficent

Is it called love
When I abdicated thee
Lost in the labyrinth of life
Is it called love
When I permitted thee
To traverse the path to misery
While I knew the right path to felicity

For love HE discloses Himself
Revealed His divine intervention
To guide mortals to blissful end
HE would not abandon His love
Obstacles He put along the way
To strengthen resistance
To ensure success in traversing path full of thorns

If I ever said I love thee
Would I relinquish thee and
Let thee aimlessness without guide
Forsaking thee is not manifestation of love
but of vengeance to see thee lost in the maze of life
If I ever love thee
I would ensure thee stay on the path to serenity



MAAFKAN UMMI

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Solemnization

In the name of Allah the Magnificent the Merciful

Qarafi and Nusaibah were solemnized as husband and wife at UIA Mosque on March 6th 2011. May their marriage be blessed by Allah always and may the newly built family is founded on Islamic teachings and ethics. May Allah be the just balance for them in making their judgment and decision.
















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Friday, March 11, 2011

IBU

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah Maha penyayang

Puan Hajar seorang yang ibu yang biasa seperti kebanyakan ibu yang lain. Keistimewaan Puan Hajar adalah sifatnya yang pemurah. Boleh dikatakan hampir semua pendapatan bulanannya disedekahkan dengan membayar yuran pengajian pelajar tahfiz, hadiah kepada ibunya, membayar yuran pengajian rakan-rakannya yang tidak berkemampuan dan Puan Hajar juga mengambil pelajar dari keluarga kurang berada menjadi anak angkatnya semata-mata untuk membantu mereka meringankan beban kewangan sepanjang tempoh pengajian anak-anak tersebut.

Walaupun Puan Hajar dikurniakan anak-anak yang cemerlang akademik, dia kesal kerana kegagalannya mendidik anak-anak yang berakhlak Islam. Anak-anak Puan Hajar taat dalam melakukan tanggungjawab sebagai seorang Islam tetapi dalam hal perhubungan kekeluargaan dan silaturrahim, anak-anak Puan Hajar gagal melaksanakan perintah Allah yang Maha penting ini. Anak Puan Hajar lebih mementingkan orang lain dari ahli keluarga sendiri.

Suatu hari, Puan Hajar keluar rumah untuk melaksanakan urusan penting. Hari itu juga anak perempuan tertuanya, Sofia, mengundang kawan-kawannya kerumah untuk memasak. Puan Hajar merasa senang hati kerana adik-adik Sofia tidaklah kelaparan nanti. Tetapi alangkah kecewa dan sedihnya Puan Hajar apabila adik-adik Sofia menelefon memberitahu mereka kelaparan dan tidak makan semenjak dari pagi lagi. Puan Hajar hairan dan bertanya,

"Kakak kamu tak jadi masak bersama kawan-kawannya ke?". Dija, adik Sofia, menjawab dengan suara yang sayu dan marah, "Kakak masak tetapi dah habis dimakan bersama-sama dengan kawan-kawannya". Puan Hajar tersentak...Sampai hati Sofia membiarkan adik-adiknya kelaparan dari pagi hingga ke petang. Airmata Puan Hajar mengalir laju tetapi dia memaafkan kesalahan Sofia kerana jika dia tidak memaafkan Sofia, Allah tidak akan redha dengan Sofia dan hidup Sofia akan merana di dunia dan juga di akhirat. Puan Hajar kesal dengan kegagalannya mendidik anak yang ada perasaan belas kasihan dan penyayang.

Masa berlalu dengan pantas, jurang antara Sofia dan adik-adiknya semakin jauh. Puan Hajar pula sibuk dengan kerjayanya. Anak-anak Puan Hajar, Dija dan Isha, menyokong usaha beliau. Puan Hajar, mengikut pandangan Dija dan Isha, adalah seorang ibu yang penyayang, tidak suka berleter, sangat penyabar, pemurah, amat jarang marah, tidak garang dalam mendidik mereka, beliau juga seorang yang bijak dan amat mementingkan kefahaman Islam yang betul serta mengamalkan aqidah yang sempurna. Dija dan Isha memuji kelebihan ibu mereka.

Tetapi lain pula dengan Sofia. Pada suatu hari, ketika Puan Hajar mengajar, beliau menerima pesanan ringkas dari Sofia yang berbunyi,

"Assalamualaikum. Disebabkan Sofia sayangkan ibu dan Sofia tidak mahu ibu masuk neraka maka Sofia mahu menegur ibu. Ibu suka bercakap mengenai Islam tetapi ibu sendiri tidak praktiskan Islam. Ibu seorang yang tidak penyabar, suka bercakap mengenai harta, suka marah-marah, suka mengarah, menegur dengan tidak berhikmah, suka memperbesarkan perkara kecil. Sebenarnya sudah lama Sofia perhatikan layanan ibu terhadap tunang Sofia. Sofia kecewa dengan ibu. Ibu faham Islam tetapi tidak praktikkan Islam. Sofia tidak hairan kalau tunang Sofia hendak putuskan hubungan dengan Sofia sebab perangai ibu. Bukan dengan tunang Sofia saja ibu berkelakuan begini tetapi dengan orang lain juga. Harap sangat-sangat ibu faham"

Hancur luluh hati Puan Hajar bukan kerana tidak boleh menerima teguran tetapi kerana tuduhan yang tak berasas sama sekali. Kalaupun teguran itu betul, amatlah tidak sesuai bagi seorang anak menegur ibunya dengan menggunakan khidmat pesanan ringkas. Kalau ibunya salah, dia perlu betulkan dengan menunjukkan cara berkelakuan yang betul, bukan dengan berlagak sebagai tuhan sehingga tahu bahawa ibunya bakal ke neraka. Sedangkan Allah itu amat Pemurah dan Pengampun, seorang pelacur pun Allah masukkan ke Surga disebabkan pelacur tersebut memberi minum kepada anjing yang haus. Adakah ibu bagi pandangan Sofia lebih hina dari pelacur dan anjing? Puan Hajar juga kecewa kerana Sofia seolah-olah tidak percaya kepada Allah sehingga sanggup mengatakan bahawa ibunya ada kuasa untuk memutuskan pertunangan bukannya Allah. Puan Hajar berdoa agar Sofia beristighfar dan mengucap supaya kembali beriman kepada Allah.

Airmata Puan Hajar mengalir laju. Makanan yang dikunyahnya terasa lekat di kerongkong. Sebaik saja beliau pulang dari kerja, beliau terus ke bilik tidur. Beliau sedaya upaya memohon kepada Allah supaya tidak menghukum Sofia dengan airmata ibu yang tumpah tidak berhenti-henti. Doa dipohon kepada Allah supaya Sofia selamat dunia dan akhirat dan supaya dia cemerlang dalam peperiksaannya. Walaupun hati Puan Hajar remuk redam tetapi beliau sayangkan anak-anaknya. Puan Hajar tidak mahu Allah tidak meredhai Sofia akibat dari tidak redhanya, ibu Sofia. Setiap kali airmata Puan Hajar mengalir disebabkan Sofia, doa supaya Allah redha kepada Sofia tidak pernah putus-putus. Puan Hajar benar-benar takut Allah akan menghukum Sofia kerana menyebabkan airmata ibu mengalir.

Setelah suaminya pulang, Puan Hajar menunjukkan pesanan ringkas dari Sofia kepada suaminya. Setelah membaca mesej tersebut, suami Puan Hajar mencela Sofia dan memujuk Puan Hajar bahawa segala apa yang di tulis dalam mesej tersebut adalah dusta semata. Suami Puan Hajar memanggil Dija dan Isha dan bertanya mengenai perangai ibu mereka. Mereka dengan senang hati mengatakan yang ibu mereka seorang yang baik, penyabar, tidak suka marah-marah, pemurah, tidak garang, penyayang dan seorang yang sensitif terhadapa masalah orang lain.


Kata-kata Dija dan Isha memberi sedikit kegembiraan kepada Puan Hajar. Bagi Dija, orang yang hanya menghabiskan masa 1 peratus sahaja dengan ibu tidak boleh menghukum ibu sedemikian rupa kerana 99 peratus lagi itulah yang lebih benar dan tepat. Tetapi selama berminggu-minggu airmata Puan Hajar gagal dibendung apabila beliau teringatkan mesej dari Sofia. Lalu Puan Hajar mengambil keputusan membawa hati yang hancur luluh menjelajah bumi Allah buat seketika.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Rough Beginning

In the Name of Allah the Most Compassionate, the most Merciful

What is good does not necessarily without pain...sometimes we have to endure pain for the good to happen...sometimes good brings with it pain and suffering...

Easier said than done...but those who stay steadfast and strong will be the real winner...

Making things easy does not mean to be looked upon as giving away with no respect...does not mean there is no dignity, no honor, to be taken for granted... making things easy is the teaching of Islam, the Prophet's way...

O Allah, what is the wisdom hidden in these trials...the contemplative intelligent is searching for the message of love that You have sent to me...but being human, my reflective power is tainted with so many black dots...Thus, O Allah, please give me strength to endure this for me to come out victorious...

May this rough beginning of a new life end up with happiness and blessings...
please answer my prayer O Allah the Answerer of all prayers

Friday, March 4, 2011

Where Do I Begin

In the name of Allah, the Most Compassionate, the Most Merciful

How should I feel? Happy or anxious...neither glad nor sad... I don't know what to expect...yes, I do love him like my own child and I do have expectations which sometimes make me wanna go and bury my head in the sand...I should listen to my brother's in Islam advice...love him like your own and all problems can be solved...I do hope so...

The first time I laid eyes on you, you look so innocent...so shy yet so confident of yourself, my first impression on you was that you were a good person...a practicing Muslim. Your body language sent me messages that were easy to read and understand. On March 1st 2010, at 3.09am, you sent me a message confirming my intuition about your feeling...

A year has passed and now you're going to be part of my family...I welcome you into my life with a lot of expectations...expectation that you would be able to tame a strong heart...soften the high spirit...mellow down the tough facade... Yes, I do expect all that from you...but I know you're only human and thus fallible...hence I have been able to love the bad, the ugly that go with the good and the beautiful...

I never judge you on your weaknesses in your attempt to reach your dream for I value more your caring and loving self...your keenness to learn, to be good...you're teachable...even though a lot of times you don't know how to show respect but I know that you do respect your elders...

Sometimes you make me cry silently...sometimes you make me the happiest person in the whole world. Thank you for spicing up and color my life into different shades and nuances...Knowing you has given me a lot of learning experiences...has made me aware of signposts...has given me meanings to simple, common but profound words...has made me aware of how should my relationship to Allah be...Thank you for just being you...I love you, MQ.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

It Runs

In the name of Allah the Most Beneficent the Most Merciful

Ummi leka kebelakangan ini...leka dalam segala-galanya...leka dalam menjaga kesihatan jasmani, emosi dan kesihatan rohani...membuatkan air jernih mengalir tanpa dipinta...tanpa ummi memahami penyebabnya...

Life is almost at the end....the end is inevitable but how can an intelligent person forget? Death is the beginning of reality, the beginning of a new life...life is a preparation for the new life....said I in front of those wide and innocent eyes....but what have I done?

In the next life we don't need doctors, engineers, builders, architects, etc cuz we don't need to cure, to build, to design....we only reap the fruits of our labor... so all knowledge that we have gained to build our life will be left behind in this ephemeral world...only knowledge about Tauhid will be taken with us to the next life....just imagine if we don't know Allah at all in this life, could we know Allah in the next life? How can we identify thing that we do not know and have no knowledge of? The biggest endowment is to witness the countenance of Allah...this is only given to those who know and love Allah...

Let it runs cuz it enlivens the barren ground